I’ve been slacking on writing anything over the past few months, but I guess with the seasons changing it’s a good time to look back and reflect. I’m still in awe that we’re still in 2018. This year feels like it’s been here forever. I was joking around with my friends, but a bit serious in saying this year had Black Panther and Infinity War come out and that feels like eons ago. I guess since there has been a lot of things that my brain can look back on this year and have that as a point-marker in life, it feels like it’s been longer than it really has been.

Sometimes right now I feel like I’m just going through with the motions of what I’m supposed to be doing… I guess I need to find that self motivation and drive to push me forward. It’s hard when everything just seems so routine everyday. On the week days it’s just wake up, go to work, work, get back from work, eat/binge watch TV shows/play games, sleep. On Saturday it’s wake up, praise team practice (if I have it), bum/sleep. On Sunday it’s wake up, go to church, practice baseball, watch football, sleep.

I know it’s my fault that everything is so routine and that I’m the only one to blame, but it’s rough trying to get out of doing the same thing over and over again.