2019 came rushing in with unexpected things and I always feel that it’s so easy to make excuses about it and keep putting yourself off-track from whatever you set out to do, but I’m set out to make that not the case.

I’m definitely still scared and have a lot of financial worries for the new year… and it definitely didn’t start the best. With the damages because of the leak, credit cards, mortgage, bills… I need to be more fiscally responsible. That means I need to stop ordering food and stop eating like a madman, but that helps with losing weight.

I also need to start hitting the gym in a more regular manner, even if it’s just to run. I’m so out of shape, and I’m thankful I have baseball to keep me in check, but for me to get better and lighter on my feet, I need to start losing weight fast so that I can be a bit more explosive and not as awkward. Maybe that won’t change. Okay, probably won’t change, but still it’ll only help in making strides to improve.

I’m also gearing up to finally try to rebuild myself in the word and prayer for once in my life instead of being so sporadic with it. Need to continue to keep getting at it bit by bit.